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Rather long update.
Hey guys, a lot has happened in these past several months I have been gone, not necessarily good things.
First thing, I finally graduated! (not a bad thing, lol.) Unfortunately I do not have enough money to go to collage yet, so I feel like I'm just wasting my life playing League of Legends and World of Warcraft.
The other thing that happened was the worst. I never mentioned it here, but I had a boyfriend, who proposed to me in May. Everything was going so well, and he seamed so determined and excited, but then, out of no where, he got cold feet and instead of just undoing the proposal, he decided to just completely cut all strings and brea
Heeey Peoples!!
Wooow!! It feels weird to come back here, buuuuuut... I'M BACK!! (maybe, lol)
It's been more than a MONTH, and that's cray cray because I've never really been away from this site for that long in the four years I've been a member!! But idk, DA is just slowly dying, and it's pretty sad. I just don't have the urge to upload things on this site anymore, buuut that might be due to the stress level I'm currently at. With all the deadlines and the stress with graduation coming up soon and collage and money issues and asdfghjkl just GAH!! DX
But I will try to be active again, I probably won't be AS active as before, buuut we'll see.
ANYWAYS!
New stuffs!
What's up peeps?!?!?! Here is an update on stuff!!
OK, so last Saturday, a bought a camera!! It's a VERY old camera, I think it came out in 2004, literally 10 years ago!! It's a Nikon D70! It was 85 dollars on craigslist, so my parents and I decided to buy just it so I can actually have a body for my lens while we save up for the D7000 that I really want. The camera works great, and it has lass than 2000 clicks, the only complain I have is that the seller failed to inform me that he camera does not turn off!! So I literally have to take off the battery every time I'm done using, I know it does not sound like much, but it's really annoying!
THANK YOU!!
I finally reached 300 watchers!! Even though 300 isn't much considering I've been a deviant for nearly 4 years I'm really happy! 300 support my crappy art!!! And I am very thankful for that!! You are all awesome!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU ALL!!! :heart::heart::heart:
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Emotional negative feedback loops cause cycles of self harm. It creates oscillation. Think of it like when your speakers feedback into your mic on skype or something. The sound goes from the speakers, into the mic, back out the speakers even stronger. Repeat pattern.
When we permit ourselves the right to feel whatever we're feeling, even when it sucks, we break the loop. But when we feel horrible about feeling horrible, then if the feeling horrible is like the sound coming out the speakers, and feeling horrible about feeling horrible is like when the speakers feed back into the mic, its the same sort of idea. It keeps getting worse and worse unless you break the loop. Giving yourself permission to feel how you feel and to know its okay to feel shitty and know its your right to be human and feel something, breaks the loop.
Humans gotta feel bad to appreciate feeling good. Gotta know who we aren't to know who we are. Its all just contrast. Nothing wrong with fear and pain. They are meant to be temporary. Just to let you know that you're not in alignment with yourself. So you can correct your course. Its not supposed to cause suffering. Its the feedback loop that creates suffering. The oscillation of negative emotion until it drives us insane.
Society teaches us to create the negative feedback loop. So that we're easier to control. Because that loop makes greedy assholes more money. Girls feel they are broken, so don't you worry -- theres all these products to fix you. Don't feel like you fit in? Well, we got a product for that too. Lots of them. Only $9.99. or blah blah whatever. Society makes treatments instead of cures, because suffering allows for your medical insurance to be charged for your whole life. We are a society that is focused on making everything break so that money can be made with supposedly fixing it. But it is never fixed. Because then the money would stop.
Theres tons of ways to make money without screwing people. And people do make money that way. But many ultra rich assholes are addicted to the ways that screw people and they fear change. They too are in their own self-destructive patterns of oscillation. The masters have become the slaves of the slaves. How ironic.
And thats why your Dad's boss could be so heartless. Because his boss is an insecure little man, addicted to a paradigm, in fear of change. Even when the change is positive.
You have so much greatness and potential in you. And its so obvious to see. But with all of that emotional noise from all of that oscillation feedback, its difficult to think, much less see. Thats how the obvious hides in plain sight.
Give yourself permission to feel as you feel and know its okay to be human, and you will stop the oscillation and the tightness will begin to depressurize safely. There will probably be a lot of crying involved. But thats normal and thats okay. And you will feel lighter than you have ever felt in your life after you allow it to vent out and don't bottle it inside of yourself anymore. Your vision will begin to clear. Your own greatness will be more apparent to you. And you will begin to realize that you can change your life and effect the world around you in ways that might be inconceivable to you right this second. But you will begin to see them. And it will feel as if you've been reborn. And you will begin to change your life, and you will see through new eyes. And your soul will have a renewed sense of purpose.
Happy Birthday
When we permit ourselves the right to feel whatever we're feeling, even when it sucks, we break the loop. But when we feel horrible about feeling horrible, then if the feeling horrible is like the sound coming out the speakers, and feeling horrible about feeling horrible is like when the speakers feed back into the mic, its the same sort of idea. It keeps getting worse and worse unless you break the loop. Giving yourself permission to feel how you feel and to know its okay to feel shitty and know its your right to be human and feel something, breaks the loop.
Humans gotta feel bad to appreciate feeling good. Gotta know who we aren't to know who we are. Its all just contrast. Nothing wrong with fear and pain. They are meant to be temporary. Just to let you know that you're not in alignment with yourself. So you can correct your course. Its not supposed to cause suffering. Its the feedback loop that creates suffering. The oscillation of negative emotion until it drives us insane.
Society teaches us to create the negative feedback loop. So that we're easier to control. Because that loop makes greedy assholes more money. Girls feel they are broken, so don't you worry -- theres all these products to fix you. Don't feel like you fit in? Well, we got a product for that too. Lots of them. Only $9.99. or blah blah whatever. Society makes treatments instead of cures, because suffering allows for your medical insurance to be charged for your whole life. We are a society that is focused on making everything break so that money can be made with supposedly fixing it. But it is never fixed. Because then the money would stop.
Theres tons of ways to make money without screwing people. And people do make money that way. But many ultra rich assholes are addicted to the ways that screw people and they fear change. They too are in their own self-destructive patterns of oscillation. The masters have become the slaves of the slaves. How ironic.
And thats why your Dad's boss could be so heartless. Because his boss is an insecure little man, addicted to a paradigm, in fear of change. Even when the change is positive.
You have so much greatness and potential in you. And its so obvious to see. But with all of that emotional noise from all of that oscillation feedback, its difficult to think, much less see. Thats how the obvious hides in plain sight.
Give yourself permission to feel as you feel and know its okay to be human, and you will stop the oscillation and the tightness will begin to depressurize safely. There will probably be a lot of crying involved. But thats normal and thats okay. And you will feel lighter than you have ever felt in your life after you allow it to vent out and don't bottle it inside of yourself anymore. Your vision will begin to clear. Your own greatness will be more apparent to you. And you will begin to realize that you can change your life and effect the world around you in ways that might be inconceivable to you right this second. But you will begin to see them. And it will feel as if you've been reborn. And you will begin to change your life, and you will see through new eyes. And your soul will have a renewed sense of purpose.
Happy Birthday